Autobiography of nicki minaj clean song meaning

This Is The Autobiography Of Onika Maraj
[Chorus:]
May the lord protect me as the world gets hectic
My voice projected my life reflected
[Verse 1:]
Daddy was a crack feind 2 in the morning had us running down the block like a track team
When he burnt the house down in my mother was in it
How could I forget it the, pain infinite
Shes my queen and I ain't even british
Shes the only reason that I went to school and I finished
She told me that I had talent
Got on her knees and prayed for me when I started being violent
She saw something in me that, until this day I don't know if I could be dat
But I'm a die tryin and when I'm done cryin
Grab the iron
And black out like I'm retiring
Nightmares of you killing my mother
The reason that I sleep with my head under the covers
N shoulda thrown a book at, chu cause I hate you so much that it burn when I look at chu
[Chorus: x2]
May the lord protect me as the world gets hectic my voice projected my life reflected
[Verse 2